Thursday, June 30, 2016

2348H

I may be off the beam, but you're the one who pushed me...

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

2308H


"And maybe I've done a lot of fucked up things in my life, but I've never lied to you...ever." 

Friday, June 24, 2016

2338H

Why can't some people refrain from acting as douche liabilities and get their crappy asses to where they should belong?

#randomrant

Thursday, June 23, 2016

Lie to me not

I am writing this now to express my feelings about how it is to support someone unconditionally even when they have not been entirely honest with you.

I think it's pretty straight-forward that every single soul is entitled to the truth. One does not have to beg for it. It's not something needed to be imposed. It should be given, because why not?


When could I finally stop implanting fictitious beliefs in my mind that I would never have to worry, nor doubt, nor have to decipher whether or not truth is what's in front of me?


I'm getting tired of just standing there, waiting for answers to a million questions. In this world full of lies and pretension, I don't know where to rely to.


Gut feel, eidetic memory, and whatnot. I do think that they do not play their rightful roles anymore.


I moan great desire to be told things that holds true. Those that I could call "facts", not lies. Not presumptions.


I need words that would embrace me so dearly, assuring me that this world, amidst being a treacherous place, can still nudge me to believe in something clear and uncontaminated. No gaslighting, no lying by omission, no secrets.


When?

Friday, June 17, 2016

1637H - The Heart Wants What It Wants


You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants

You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lighting me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Heroin drip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby, baby, no, I can't escape

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants

This is a modern fairytale
No happy endings
No wind in our sails
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down, down, down, down

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants
It wants what it wants

Friday, June 10, 2016

1740H

Working... working...

Missing a lot in my life right now.

I decided to submissively bury myself in this melancholic playlist.

On a contrary, these songs do not really sound dramatic at all.

Drake. Big Sean. Roy Woods. Jheine Aiko. Bryson Tiller. The Weeknd. These songs , uhh, let's say, unleashes that badass in me. And these songs keep me high and low in a weird kind of way.

Migraine is the least that I wanted, but it's low-key killing me, just like this strong affinity which I totally have no idea as to why it suddenly hit me. Jargonized or literal version? Come, figure.

Monday, June 6, 2016

1503H


Or that "friend" could be me, myself.

Digging deets through FB could be fun in its own way.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

2136H





Started reading this book and I'm loving it. ♥

2042H

'Cause baby sometimes, I can tell just by your face this part of us been gone for so long.
And I know there's no replacing what we had going on... for so long.

But when it hurts, I can make it better.
Girl if it works, it's gon' be forever.
We been through the worst,
Made it through the weather.
Our problems and the pain... (pain),
But love don't change